Waiting On The Rock

As everyday is passing my love

Your hair once so red as the autumn leaves,

Turns greyer,

You still wait for me

Even when I'm never there

How can I tell you I died long ago

And I love every single tear you cry

You miss me,

Cry for me an ocean of tears, I love you

Wait for me on the rock even when I'll never be there

When you sob on the rock

I sit beside and watch you

I love that beautiful face, I catch your every tear

I adore the despair in your eyes

Even though my heart screams with agony

I crave for your scent sending shivers down my spine

And I wait as you run out of life

And you lie on the rock as a weak, wrinkled form

Before you die, you whisper my name

I feel a cold breeze kissing my face

And when I hold your hand again

I feel like I'm alive once more

I was blushing scarlet while writing this.

Things I Learnt in October 2011

• I found out that there are no ups and downs in life. It's the decisions you make and how you live life, that affects you.
• I tried not to let sadness overcome me. It worked!
• I passed in Chemistry for the first time in my life in the Monthly Test. I even got a respectable overall percentage.
• I decided that I would never feel inferior to anyone. A confidence booster it truly was!
• I found out that to win the respect of others, one has to be gentle but straightforward.
• I found out that showing love to your enemies makes them your friends.
• I found out that one should always be calm and keep a cool, clear head to overcome a difficult situation. 
• I found out that anger is merely a devil egging you on towards trouble.
• I found out that I should never judge a person without talking to him. The people whom I disliked turned out to be great people. 
• I made a new friend. 
• I stopped getting my hopes up too high or expecting too much from certain people. This saved me from a lot of disappointment.
• I decided never to scream Pakistan Khappay in mischief after the national  anthem in the college's morning assembly (after what happened to me).
• I found out that a height of 6.2, wearing bling shling or making bizarre hairstyles don't make you cool and intimidating.
• I found out that one would always end up losing if he compares himself to everyone out there. Just be yourself is a great saying.
• I found out that nothing was better than making others laugh or make them feel cheerful even though I had to make a fool of myself for it.
• I found out that if one has love, friends and family with him then he has everything in life.
• I thanked God for all that he had given me. I also found out that God never ignored my desires and wishes. Now I know that God waits for the perfect time to grant you your wish. God never keeps a Plan B. Plan A always works!

October truly was, a classroom for me. I was completely anonymous to sadness, depression and anger. I should write a book now... "How To Be Happy In Life"

The Last Touch

I had been suffering from a serious case of writer's block so I decided to try something unique. I turned on N.I.B by Black Sabbath and the verses came to my mind naturally. I think my mind begins to work faster when its exposed to pure Heavy Metal. This poem is about a man's feelings after he killed a girl...! It's dark but I think it's kinda incomplete. I'm unsatisfied...but here it goes...

He never felt his mind was at ease
He was abandoned, lost and forgotten
Trapped in his own mind, where could he go?
The ashes of the past were his reminders
Of the Sin he committed, the Sin he committed
Run, Run, He could never get a place to hide
He could never reach the garden where he could rest
He could never burn the past, its was his only shield
 He walked silently, against the wall
Leaving streaks of blood behind
He scratched the door and broke a nail
But his mind was too preoccupied to feel the pain
That face he killed always overshadowed it
He could feel her touch, her last touch
The last touch before she could breath no more